truth and purple

life's weird lately
i had a 3 second long deep-n-meaningful with Sam last week and it cleared things up in my head more than most conversations i have these days
he said "are you just finding it easier to hate everything rather than learn to tolerate it? yeah me too".

i'm getting tattooed on thursday
and as of right now i have $2.87 to my name
not really sure how i'm going to manage it but fingers crossed i work it out

on Saturday, Benben and i were asked to DJ last minute at 32 because Tom was in Sydney
we had no idea what we were doing and pretty much just played pop RnB, Nas, pop punk and Lady Gaga and everyone seemed to dig it
i had way more fun doing it than i usually do there, sitting on the couch playing with my phone all night
i'd be down with doing it again soon

i'm so restless but unkeen to go anywhere at the moment.
i love canberra but hate nearly everyone in it.
i have a shit load of shows booked over the next 4 or so months and i'm really keen for them
but dealing with everyone that goes to them seems like more trouble than i'd like to put into it
crowds have seriously dropped hard in canberra and its way more disheartening than i expected.
last year we were killing it and average crowds were 100+
now we're looking at 40+ if we're lucky
kids don't care, but bitch when nothings on or the venue isn't 3 metres from their house
everyone's fucking lazy and doesn't want to help in looking for new venues and i almost couldn't be fucked doing this anymore
but then again i'll probably change my mind in a few weeks and be siked again
i just need a kick in the face

this entry has been so sporadic

we have a projector and couches and shit set up in the garage at the moment
perfect for summer night movies
watched horton hears a who and iron man tonight
tomorrow i'm gonna watch alpha dog and planet of the apes

in a few weeks Elly's 18th birthday is hapening
the theme is to dress in purple and i'm way more siked than i should be
everyone says i'll look like the grimace and they're probably right
oh well, fuck em

i'm out for now
peace